Troy's life

today i was a little disappointed to find no one had read mt blog. but then i remember it was about me and for me. i spent this evening with my nieces and sister one of many here lately. i have two sisters and three brothers. my baby sisters has moved away from our immediate family area. the rest all still live here. i recently lost my mother to cancer. it still feels like today that she left, even though it's been 1 year,7months and 14 days.no words can explain how much i miss her. if she were here i wouldn't need to have this blog as an out i have her to go to to talk about what is happening in my life. funny tho i can't even cry no more there's no tears left in my eyes.i must pull from what she always taught me and thats to pray for guideance from God. I t's baffles me that i still have just a hard time praying and doing what others seem to do as second nature. i often wounder am i the only one that has this problem.